There are so many things that happen everyday in our lives, but if we don't write about them we forget them and they quickly are lost in the fog of the past, where they are unimportant and insignificant. It doens't matter how much importance an experience has for you at the time, in a few days or months they are forgotten. It is sad to think that someday all these little joyful moments shared with my daughter are going to fade into a foggy mist of insubstantial memories that are recalled only with the greatest of effort with little detail, if any. There are so many things that if I had not written them down I would already have forgotten. It hurts my heart to know how fragile our memories are and little we can retain. I know there are plenty of things in my past that I wouldn't want to recall more clearly, but there are a great many more things that I wish I could remember far more clearly than I do now. Someday I hope we can unlock the secret to retaining our memories and how we felt while experiencing them.

If you sat down right now and tried to remember the first time you saw your child's face, could you? Not the time, obviously, but the way they looked, the way you felt, where you were, who was there. Can you remember it?

If you tried to remember the way you felt on your wedding day, how your spouse looked, who came, what you ate, whether you cried or not, the look on your parents faces, can you? Do you remember it all?

Can you remember your gradutation? Were you nervous? Who spoke? Who came? Was it inside, outside? Did you have fun or just endure? Is it still there? Can you remember it at all?

Do you remember your first job? The first day of your first job? Did you mess up? Were you a nervous wreck? Who did you work with? Can you remember their names?

Why is it that so many of our experiences become so insignificant that they don't even stay in our minds? I'd like to be able to say that I will never forget how it felt to hold my daughter the first time. How I cried when I saw her, and couldn't even form the words when my husband asked me if I wanted to hold her, but he still knew. I wish I could hold that feeling inside me and never lose it even a little bit. But already it slips away, day by day. I forget.

And those are the big things. I don't want to forget the way my daughter grins with her three teeth and then tries to attack my fingers. I don't want to forget how she loves to play peek-a-boo, and hides from me before popping up and laughing as she does it over and over. I don't want to forget the way she nestles down with her head under my chin and falls asleep listening to my heart. I don't want to forget how she tries to hide things on her head, and thinks it's the bestest ever.

There are so many things I don't want to forget, and I've already forgotten them. I wish I could get them back. They are my treasures, and it hurts to lose them day by day.

Don't forget what matters most. Never forget it.

The Monster Update

Quick overview of will be covered:

Piper's Birthday

Easter

Money thingies
Marriage-ness

Random tidbits

Piper turned one! I can't belive it. I'm the mother of a one year old! And she's an adorable specimen if I may say so. She is a little motorbutt, crawling at super speeds, quite hilariously too. She puts her head down and just zooms along. Which is just grand until her not-looking ends with her head coming in contact with walls and the like. Then she gets a puzzled look, often followed by a sort burst of tears, before resuming her pursuit with her head up for at least a minute or two. She doesn't like dresses, though she got several simply fabulous ones for her birthday, because they are just too darn hard to crawl in. She also got toys and other clothes, but only recently discovered that the toys can be just as much fun as the wrapping paper and boxes they came in. She also has discovered the wonders of cake. Cupcakes are fabulous, as are cookies, but cakes are allowed to be smooshed and everyone just smiles so they have become her favorite. But when she's that cute what am I to do?

She didn't like that it crumbled

But she loved that I let her do it all by herself!

And she knows when a smile will make everything forgiven!

Unfortunately I don't have any pictures of the fabulous Easter Party, but it was oodles of fun! Piper found 5 eggs, one all by herself. She didn't like that icky grass stuff she had to traverse to get ot the wonderful tasting plastic egg, but se perservered. And she still adores them. We are putting all the eggs away with the decorations, she found a red dinosaur one and she even sleeps with it sometimes. And her birthday cake was served there. It was in the shape of an Easter basket with eggs shaped sugar cookies inside. I made it, and I am more than a little proud of myself. My first cake and it was grand. I'll have pitures up soon.

So Logan decided to put an ad on Craig's List for doors. He said he was a garage door guy and had a spare door sitting in the our garage that he needed to sell. He marked it up a little, and then said ne would also help install if needed for a nominal fee. 3 days later he had 25 responses. We only hope things will continue in this fashion. Because, while we aren't exactly rolling in the dough, we are able to pay our bills, and have a steady income. He had work every single day last week. For the first time in eight months. We can hardly contain our excitment. Though Piper misses him when he goes. She's used to seeing her daddy a lot more than she has of late.

Tuesday was our 2 year anniversary and we had a wonderful night. (Not like that! As if I'd write about it on my blog.) Fawn kept Piper overnight and we went to dinner, then to the movies, and then for some dessert. No time restraints, no worrying about getting Piper home for bed, it was like we were dating again. A year may not be that long especially in the grand scheme of things, but when you take that and tack on the 2 months I was too big to really do anything, it's been awhile since we were just husband and wife with nothing to do but enjoy each other's company. And we really did enjoy it. A great night all the way around.

Okay, sick to death of mamma mia. I could sit here and write out the entire script for you. Piper still enjoys it to the hilt though, and so when we must confine her to her bouncer (like when I'm mopping and suchlike) it's on. She is almost walking... well she's technically walking, because she's taken steps, but she won't now. She is terrified of falling, and so won't stand if you let go of her. She took a bad spill and now the only way to get her to walk is to trick her into it. Which only works every once in a while, because she's caught onto that ploy. I'm going back down to California tomorrow, because I do that a lot. I'm pretty fond of it there. Though it's been in the eighties here so I'm actually starting to enjoy myself. But we are actually going because alyssa is back from collegia and she has to see piper, and I'm benefitting from that.

Okay, that's it. Hugely a lot I know, but it's been a while, and so much has happened!

And here are a few headlines that missed the point:

Include Your Children When Baking Cookies

Something Went Wrong In Jet Crash, Expert Says

Lung Cancer in Women Mushrooms

Eye Drops Off Shelf

Teachers Strike Idle Kids

Miner Refuses to Work After Death

Stolen Painting Found By Tree

War Dims Hope for Peace

Cold Wave Linked to Temperatures

Typhoon Rips Through Cemetary, Hundreds Dead

Kids Make Nutritious Snacks

Steals Clock, Faces Time

Sex Ed. Delayed, Teachers Request Training

Have a nice day!

Things Learned

-Babies do not want the toys you bought for them. Give them keys, water bottles, or magnets and they will be much happier.

-Horses run in circles, whether or not they are on a track.

-Lose enough times and no game is fun anymore.

-Babies will explode out of their diapers at the most inopportune moments.

-It takes money to make money. Oft said, but newly realized in a personal way.

-New shoes bring joy to ones life. No matter how much you spend.

-Talking after people stop listening is pointless, but I can't seem to stop myself. I hate leaving thoughts unfinished.

-People rarely listen through the end of what you have to say. But will pretend that they are.

-Taxes are grand in theory, but useless in practice.

-Clothes never look as good on you as they do on the manequin.

-Your children are the most expensive and precious thing in your home, and yet they are usually an afterthought to everyone else.

-The world is a strange and scarely place. Heard said many times. Realized in truth only very recently.

-Many people will take everything they can get, even if it's more than they need or want. Just because they can.

-The less stress in your life, the less time you waste in pointless worrying.

-Boys are thoughtless, irresponsible, unromantic, crude, and sometimes mean. But we love them still. And we forgive them of these things in hopes that they will forgive us for being fickle and picky and emotional and moody.

-Marriages are hard, but being alone is harder.

-Love is the cure-all in any situation. And if you remember that you'll be quicker to forgive.

-If you are happier throughout the day everything just seems to work itself out.

-I love my family more and more, and it never seems to stop, though I was sure it would. But I'm very glad it hasn't!

What have you all learned? I want to know!

There's no people like these people!!!

I love people.

I especially love it when I have people who love me around.

Like, for instance, all my family here who just love being with me. And the extended family, my grandparents and cousins and aunts and uncles who I just love to see. And talk to! And also those people from church! All the people I grew up with and know so well.

I love seeing all these people again.

I love catching up and just chatting the day away.

I love having people to hang out with all the time.

I love not being alone.

Can you see the faces?

California

We are here, in the land of sunshine. Now, some may argue (particularly my sisters in Hawaii), but I have to say that California IS the land of sun. It's the middle of february and we were out working on our tan this afternoon. How I have missed this. It's been storming in Idaho and we just beat a huge one last weekend that would have had us snowed in.

So why are down here, again? Well, unfortunately, it's not for fun or sun. Well, it is for me. But we aren't here on a lovely holiday (that was last month), this trip is business. Logan is working for his brother for two weeks while the person he hired to replace Logan when we moved is down in Mexico. Basically we're here to make us some money to keep us afloat for a little while we look for jobs.

Piper's favorite movie is Mamma Mia! and we watch it between 2 and 5 times a day. So isn't it strange that I still love the songs? I do. I listen to them and sing them all the time. Piper loves it. She claps for me. She's growing so fast!!! She crawls real crawling now. And she claps and waves. And talks, though she doesn't know what she's saying. She says mama and dada and nana. We've decided that since she started this nana thing while we're here that she's saying grandma, so that will be my mom's nickname.

I don't think I've told people, but I've been writing a book. It's taking over my brain. Everytime I am watching a movie or listening to music or knit, or change a diaper, or update my blog, or read a book, or anything really, my thoughts are hijacked by my plot. I only hope that something will come of it.

Happy Baby

Oh my dearie me

So it's february, still winter right? So it's been hot and sunny... okay, it's been 40 outside, but it's been sunny everyday, and that's way hotter than the 20 that it's been.

So I was thinking oh yay, spring is on it's way.

This morning I woke up to a snow flurry. That hasn't stopped all day. And it's sticking!

So disappointed.

In other news, being a woman sucks, and I wish I didn't have to be. But I doubt being a boy would be any fun either. Gah.

Piper is little miss motor butt, and can't hold still to save her life. She doesn't even stay still while she's sleeping. Everytime she wake up from her nap, or I wake her up in the morning she's in a very different position than the one I laid her down in.

She is starting to learn words. Not saying them, but their meaning. She knows what no means and seems to take unholy delight in utterly ignoring us when we use it. She gives me that oh so innocent smile and I just know she's going to be an unholy terror. She'll probably have her daddy wrapped a around her finger and doing whatever she wants in no time flat. And me too probably. She's too darn cute.

A few words that I am particularly fond of (That don't actually exist):

Aquadextrous - Possessing the ability to turn the bathtub faucet on and off with your toes.

Burgacide - when a hamburger can't take any more torture and hurls itself through the grill into the coals

Disconfect - To sterilize the piece of candy you dropped on the floor by blowing on it, somehow assuming this will remove all the germs

Giraffiti - Vandalism spray painted very very high

Intaxication - the euphoria you feel at recieving your tax refund, which lasts until you realize it was your money to begin with

Karmageddon - It's like, when everyone is sending off all these really bad vibes, right? And then, like the earth explodes and it's like a serious bummer ya know.

Phonesia - The affliction of dialing a phone number and fogeting who you were calling just as they answer.

Reintarnation - When you come back to life as a hillbilly

Sarchasm - the gulf between the author of sarcastic wit and the recipient who doesn't get it.

Tatyr- A lecherous Mr. Potato Head

Telecrastination - The act of letting the phone ring at least twice before you pick it up, even if you're only 6 inches away.

Well have a wonderful day!!!!

It's been awhile.

Hello to you all, and I hope your holidays were joyous ones.

So, for the Piper update:
*She has two teeth now
*She enjoys biting fingers
*She shines with unholy glee when she makes me scream
*She is mobile
*She doesn't like our hardwood floors
*She loves dirt, twigs, dust bunnies, strings, bits of plastic, and other such things that accumilate on our floors
*She puts everything in her mouth
*She puts EVERYTHING in her mouth
*She doesn't like her toys
*She likes hair clips and cell phones and cds and keyboards and wires and shoes and medicine bottles and water bottles and socks and earrings and necklaces and headphones...etc.
*She will not crawl on her hands and knees
*She often wll crawl with her elbows and then try to walk on her feet
*At the same time
*She flips over
*She doesn't like being on her back at all
*Changing her and bathing her have become tricky propositions
*She adores her daddy
*When drinking her bottles if her daddy is anywhere around she must look at him
*When she sees him she smiles
*She likes smiling with ehr bottle in her mouth and letting the milk dribble out the corners
*She dislikes bibs with a passion
*She doesn't understand why I won't let her feed herself
*Her nails grow like crazy and she uses them to latch onto things
*She loves to latch onto my arms and neck
*I have bloody welts on my arms and neck a lot these days
*She is fabulous
*She giggles adorably
*She growls at me and then growls again if I growl back
*She is the joy of my life


And in other news, no we haven't been able to find work. We are settling just fine up here. And we don't plan on another child until piper is two and a half, or we can afford it - whichever comes last. It's chilly, but I'm getting used to it and Logan adores it. We plan on visiting California again in about 3 weeks.

I"d love to hear from you all, I'm starved for adult conversation. Actually, for a conversation, rather than talking to myself... :) Love y'all. Drop me a line!